The Book of Life: Evolution of my self

The book of life: Evolution of my self through incarnation 33 Amenoum (Mario Ljubičić) December 24, 2025 1 Introduction I was never really interested in talking about myself or my work but the work led me to accept myself as a composite of a body and a soul which then made me realize that writing about myself and my life can have scientific value. I have also realized that my type of soul doesn’t only have short-term goals concerning the current incarnation but its primary mission, is inevitably inter-incarnational. I believe the word mission here is appropriate given how determined my soul is in fulfilling, what seems to be, its destiny. By my theories and hypotheses, evidence for reincarnation of souls, among other things, can be found in comparison of mental and physical characteristics and experiences between incarnations. Therefore, the primary purpose of this biography is to increase available evidence for reincarnation of souls. At this point, however, the majority of the human world is not ready for my discoveries (because they are profound). In fact, it might never be before it gets extinct, and that may actually be for the best. Thus, it seems I’m writing this too primarily to my future self, believing there is a way for this to be passed on to it even if my knowledge doesn’t become public knowledge. My work has led me to believe that human souls won’t be reincarnating on the surface of the Earth beyond this century, or, beyond the 24th century - in an alternative scenario. In case of the former, the humanity might be extinct by the year 2066, which is the most likely year of my death as well. There is some possibility, however, that I am going to die at the age of 50±2 and incarnate at least once more on the surface on Earth (probably living up to the age of 36-37 in that incarnation). Thus, that may be the person whom I’m writing this to. 1 2 Destiny, reducing density of the pit of suffering While I was working on Complete Relativity[1] (CR) or The Solar System[2] I kept telling people I’m writing a scientific paper but they kept saying I am writing a book. I didn’t get the meaning of that then, but now I came to realize that I was destined to write at least one book after all. So, here it is. This, however, I’d call one of short-term destinies or goals of my evolution. The long-term or inter-incarnational one is, of course, to understand the universe observable outside me, unobservable inside me and the one I am. The more I understand the more I can observe, the more I do not see and the more I know there is to me, so the quest may go on forever.. but that seems not to bother the self of me. Why do I have this insatiable urge to understand is hard to tell. I could say that’s simply the way I’m programmed but why was I programmed that way then? Well, the world cannot be an endless web of lies in an infinite pit of deception, someone has to be programmed to see the rays of truth and seek the way out. The better question is why was I born in it in the first place, to what degree have I deserved it and to what degree I’m yet to deserve it? If everything is completely relative, as I do find, how relative is my karma? It is clear that, with every incarnation one is a different being and even that being is evolving during life, so it is clear that whatever one deserves one deserves it relatively. Identity is relative. To what degree will I, and to what degree will someone close to I, suffer for my "sins" and to what degree will I suffer for its own? Relativity is confusing to those accustomed to the comfort-zone of an absolute point of view. In other words, reality is confusing to those accustomed to illusion. That’s why most people don’t understand me - I am too real for them. Among such people it’s my short-term destiny for my long-term me and its long-term solutions to be ignored, pushed aside or ridiculed. My recurring short-term destiny in this world seems to be the [cyclic] suffering, but I believe its magnitude is decreasing proportionally to my increasing knowledge. After all, cultivation of knowledge is cultivation of power. With enough power, there is no pit one cannot subdue. 2.1 The numbers, bloody numbers, at the gates of knowledge Some say that mathematics is human invention, but absolutely that’s not true, we’re only noting what we observe in our languages and one of these is mathematics. Nature is full of numbers, it is counting, adding, subtracting, dividing and multiplying all the time. There’s order and there’s chaos in nature. And there’s self-similarity. Some patterns are repeating across different scales. Thus, some numbers we observe in nature will appear more frequently than others. So here are the numbers I have either often encountered while developing my theories (both in theory itself and in synchronicity events), during daily 2 operation, or have elsewhere found to be of elevated significance: 13+0 −2,23+0 −1,33+0 −0,43+1 −1,53+2 −2,66+3 −3 These should not be taken as absolute, e.g., 66 here could be observed as 66 ×10−2but also as part of a ratio (2/3). In any case, the powers of 10 (which I correlate with vertical energy levels) and the number 3 have elevated significance in the observable universes. Interestingly, this is something N. Tesla claimed too, which I do not find surprising, given the fact that he could be one of the past incarnations of my soul[3]. If these numbers represent discrete states of a system (generally, oscillating one), superpositions of adjacent states may also be relatively common. A superposition is generally most stable [or has a peak] in the middle - arithmetic mean of adjacent numbers. In example, a superposition of 23 and 33 is: 23 + 33 2= 28 Note that deviation in numbers themselves also suggests oscillation and thus probability of superposition. Consider 66±3, it is probably a superposition in the form of average of 63 and 69 since I did encounter 63 and 69 more often than 64, 65, 67 and 68. The same is true with other numbers. I have encountered 23 more often than 22 but not much more often, so 22 and 23 may represent discrete states (superposition being 22.5, commonly rounded to 23). Sometimes superposition may be encountered more often than the two discrete states (like in case of 66) but sometimes it’s vice versa. While the average of base states seems to be the most common superposition, other combinations are possible. Apart from 1/2, I find that other common states are 1/3 and 2/3 between the base states. Due to increase in global synchronicity, these numbers may be appearing more often in synchronicity events globally. Interestingly, but unsurprising to me - the initial version of this book had exactly 33 pages after I was finished adding this chapter while the html file itself was 53 KB in size. The PDF generated from LaTeX had 23 pages. 3 I often encounter synchronicity when I do some significant updates to my work. For example, after a heavy revision/update on 2023.02.21, the book had 38 pages (33+43 / 2), the html file was 73 KB in size, generated PDF had 28 pages (23+33 / 2). After a heavy update on 2023.03.01, the book had 45 pages, the html file was 86 KB (2×43) in size, generated PDF had 33 pages. Note the prevalence of the number 3. Also note that performing simple mathematical operations on the components of dates can yield more correlation, e.g., 2023 => 20 + 23 = 43, 02.21 => 02 + 21 = 23. This kind of addition of date components is not arbitrary. I have previously realized that nature sometimes indeed is doing this, for example, adding days and months together like these units of time have equal value. This may seem to us like adding apples and oranges, but in some natural reference frames it is not, as I’ve explained elsewhere[4]. It should be noted that my experience of synchronicity with numbers usually does not involve and kind of operations performed on them, however, the operations are involved in this synchronicity because I am talking about such operations in this chapter (rather than numbers alone, both - operations and numbers, are part of the synchronicity event here). I didn’t believe in synchronicity before the transformation of consciousness that I survived in my thirties. But the extensive research, the overwhelming synchronicity I’ve experienced at the peak of transformation, and the daily experience of synchronicity that continues to this day, have all convinced me in its reality beyond any doubt. The numbers are not arbitrary, I have eventually discovered, for example, that these numbers represent ages of physiological transformation in my body/- soul: •the number 3 is correlated with the start of my childhood - that peaked about the age of 6/7 (3 + 10 ×1/3, year 1987/1988, ∼350 ppm CO2), •the number 13 is correlated with the start of my puberty/adolescence (year 1994, ∼360 ppm CO2) - that peaked about the age of 16 (13 + 10 ×1/3, year 1997, ∼366 ppm CO2), •the number 22/23 is correlated with the transformation to adulthood started at that age (year 2003, ∼375 ppm CO2, this is the year when my son was born and when I was married), •I have been divorced at the age of 33 (year 2014, ∼400 ppm CO2), which was the start of my biggest transformation (re-birth) - one that peaked about the age of 36 (33 + 10 ×1/3), •I have started experiencing another, albeit smaller, transformation (repuberty) at the age of 43 (year 2024, ∼425 ppm CO2) - which should peak 4 either about the age of 46 (43 + 10 ×1/3), about the age of 50 (43 + 10 ×2/3), or possibly about the age of 48 (43+53 / 2 = 46+50 / 2) - or, more precisely, about the year of 450 ppm CO2. Note that one of my transformations started when my son was born. Note now the numbers in the date he was born: 2003.11.23. My home postal number is 43, which is also my shoe number. The pub I visit most frequently is at number 23 (I believe the number is now even in its name). I could go on, but, obviously, synchronicity is not limited to the state of now, it is correlated with the past and the future. Studies show that people in general are experiencing physiological transformations roughly every 10 years and the years of transformations are similar, however, the magnitude is different between subspecies/individuals. The peak of transformation events may be generally correlated with traumatic or even near death experiences (note that death itself is a transformation event). That, I infer, among other things, from my own experience. At the peak of my first transformation, when I was 6/7 years of age, I nearly drowned. Note that N. Tesla also nearly drowned as a youngster[5]. At the peak of my strongest transformation, when I was about 36/37 years of age, I have experienced what is commonly diagnosed as nervous breakdown and I’ve been close to death at least on 3-5 occasions about that time (unrelated to the breakdown itself). At the peak of my adolescence, about the age of 16, I was closest to suicide. At the peak of my adulthood transformation about the age of 28 I’ve ended up in hospital with severe stomach pain (the cause remains unknown, but I have never experienced such stomach pain in my life ever before or after). Even the start of transformation for me is sometimes critical. My adulthood started with me ending up in a ditch (in a car) and the start of my puberty was similarly dangerous. In fact, the start of the current transformation may be the only one so far without significant trauma (that is, without counting the very unpleasant double toothache lasting for months) - should I be happy I only feel unhappy this time? What will happen at the peak of my current transformation? Probably a smaller breakdown, if I don’t get struck by an asteroid. So far, however, despite numerous incidents and close calls, my body never did experience any serious or longer-lasting injury (although I must mention the nasty skin allergy, which, however, may have been more correlated with my mentality rather than physicality), but the same definitely cannot be said for my soul, which seldom got relief from trying to get out of the pit of suffering. 5 I’m not trying hard anymore though, my philosophy has changed. Problems can be solved with force, but also with the absence of force. One can use force and try climbing out of the well (pit) of suffering potential, or one can simply tunnel through, for the soul has that capability. Tunnelling, however, is usually associated with loss of consciousness (near death experiences) or death, something one part of my soul seems attracted to. Frequency of consciousness may be altered with meditation. Unless one tunnels far away (which is, on average, unlikely), the tunnelling is a temporary solution, due to inevitable reincarnation. Another solution is simply to wait for the pit to dissolve, even if it takes multiple incarnations. Here, increasing knowledge helps speeding up the time. Therefore, it seems that my body will probably survive all the future peaks and transformations (lucky me..). I even believe that the peak of my mental suffering has passed. As the human world is tumbling down perhaps the pit of suffering will crumble for me as well, as it should for the planet - which is in a transformation event itself. God knows, however, what exactly is yet to happen to me by the age of death, which I’ve estimated at about 85 (year 2066). 3 The early days I was born on September 1st, 1981 (time 12:30) in a hospital in Slavonski Brod, Croatia, but as a child I’ve lived in Sibinj, a nearby village where my parents had a home. Considering my hypotheses on soul-body coupling and evidence for it, it is the place of conception that is important, however, the place of conception is generally very close to the place of birth. The place of my conception (location at or near Sibinj) is one evidence that my past incarnations, apart from Tesla, also include I. Newton and J. Christ[6]. Naturally, I don’t remember much of my early childhood, but I do remember things of high impact. One time my father took me to a nearby lake called Petnja. I have been about 6 or 7 years old. While I was in the water playing with a childhood friend (who was younger than me), my father went away for a moment to chat with the friend’s father. I had that inflatable swimming belt about me, but, during play, somehow it inverted and my head ended up in the water while my legs were up in the air. The other kid didn’t really understand what was happening, he was laughing at his joke and no one suspected there’s something wrong. But somehow an older woman lying nearby noticed this and managed to pull me up before it was too late. 6 Another thing that left an impression was me getting my first computer - C64. I think I was 8 or 9 years old. I really enjoyed playing games on that thing, but I was most interested in how these games were made. I was trying to do some programming on it, but the interface it comes with was very basic and limited, so not much could be done. This changed, perhaps two years later, when my father bought a 386 desktop machine for work. It was love at first boot for me. I don’t think he did much work on it, certainly not much compared to how many hours I’ve spent coding stuff and playing games. I have also spent significant portion of my childhood at my grandma’s (from mother’s side) place. I had good time there, and I’ll never forget the plum-filled dumplings grandma used to make, still the best I ever tasted. I remember that during a large period of my childhood I really didn’t like being photographed. Every time someone would try to take a photo of me I would burst into tears and turn my back on him. Naturally, there aren’t many photos of me during that period and those that do exist don’t show my face, only my back. For a long time I couldn’t figure out why was I reacting in that way and what was the meaning of it. But it’s clear to me now that this was probably an expression of a crossover instinct - in some of my past lives my soul was in an animal sensitive to light but it was occasionally exposed to bright flashes of light, someone might have been taking pictures of it, perhaps regularly, and it hurt. 2021.06.17 I have another interpretation of this (although both are probably true). Recently, I’m having problems with my eyes while being outside on sunny days. Every time I go out on a sunny day my eyes start closing and it becomes very hard to use them. Initially, I thought this was related to another issue - a tiny fragment of metal got recently incorporated (or glued) to my right eye causing eyesight issues, however, since both eyes are affected by the presence of the Sun and considering that I do not have any issues any more while indoors (or outdoors at night) even when looking at sources of light (such as light bulbs and computer screens), I believe the two phenomena are not strongly related, rather synchronized. I thus consider my childhood fear of exposure to bright light as a precursor to this, and this as a possible precursor to sensitivity to frequencies of sunlight in a future incarnation - real homo.sapiens[7]. Considering that this homo.sapiens should be living in Earth’s mantle, and if, as hypothesized, it lives in the dark illuminated solely by bio-luminescence, such precursor is not surprising. With time, more and more people should be experiencing the same, however, I’m not sure about my own evolution in near future. I might 7 stagnate in human form for a while. 2025.05.02 To make it clear, these problems with my eyes have disappeared after a couple of months. It should not be uncommon for children to produce such reactions, so if a child reacts unexpectedly to something, it would be good to respect its choice rather than force it to do something it doesn’t like, it will eventually pick up more human-like behavioural characteristics, although it is possible for some instincts to survive even to adulthood. In case of children however, another possibility exists too - if the radius of the soul of an individual (or, its brain) grows (growth = time-dilated inflation) with the growth of the brain then, since this radius is correlated with the soul’s oscillation frequency, the child might be more mentally entangled with other species - those whose soul radius is equal to the current radius of the child’s soul. Note that this also implies that children are much more mentally entangled with other children of equal age than they are mentally influenced by adults. Strength of this mental influence should be inversely proportional to distance and difference between soul radii. Note that the entanglement of the soul and the brain does not imply that the soul is in, or contained within, the brain. It may be localized within the brain area, but it should not be considered as a part of the brain. 4 Science of religion and religion of science Already at young age I was exposed to the worst kind of religion, one propagated by the Roman Catholic Church. I was forced to go to church regularly, mainly due to my grandmother (from father’s side) who was a devoted follower of the cult. But I didn’t mind it much then, they made me believe in an absolute almighty god (God) and I didn’t see anything wrong in what was being preached. I took it very seriously so I was regularly praying, trying not to commit sins and when I did I would confess and ask for forgiveness like devoted orthodox Christians do. At some point, I guess during elementary school, I started questioning all of it and quickly realized what a sham it is. From that point I became agnostic and a growing believer in mainstream science. However, with the soul transformation at the age of 36-37, similarly was happening with my belief in mainstream science. The more I learned about universes the more I became disappointed 8 with orthodox science, so in the end I’d have to classify it as scientific religion practised by a scientific cult (it may be using the scientific method, but its main streams are as narrow and as close-minded as the average cult of Catholics). Having something good exploited to build the foundations (just like the Church exploited Jesus) doesn’t make one non-corruptible, holy or infallible. I’ve tried searching for the alternatives to mainstream science but I haven’t really found any, especially when it comes to physics. It’s all more religion than science, although, I believe, as the mainstream science is fortifying its religion the alternatives are fortifying their science, or, at least one of them is (my own). Science and religion grew as one body before they branched into opposites. So there’s science in religion and there’s religion in science. Once the foundations are set, human science is evolving science weakly but is strongly evolving religion. Similar is true for the foundations of religion, it evolves weakly but it adapts its interpretations to science, unless it has the power to deny it. As long as the science has the power to deny it, it will deny the true alternative and treat it as pseudo-science. Only once it loses its power or choice it will incorporate the alternative into its foundations and, without any apology or admission of blindness, proceed with a new cycle of fortifying religion. This is how things work in polarized society. Fake everything as much as possible and resist change as much as possible, even if unconsciously. Truth is allowed to rule for a brief moment only before it is corrupted or abused for the establishment or re-establishment of some cult. As I didn’t see myself fitting anywhere I had to form my own alternative. In the end, it can be said that I have, in some sense, unified religion and science, because I have, for example, a definition of a god in my science. In my science/religion, gods are obeying the laws of physics but neither gods nor the laws are absolute. Complete Relativity is my science but I freely admit it is also my religion - because nothing can be absolutely proven, there will always be truths that cannot be revealed. 5 The elementary school Being very calm, extremely introverted and having top grades, I was very different than most kids. That made me a magnet for their frustrations. I was often teased and bullied by those who had troubles at home. I felt safest sitting behind the desk during classes so I usually didn’t get up during breaks either, although not even that was safe. There was this one guy who would, during breaks, run back and forth in the classroom, and every time he would pass beside me he would slap me in the back of my head. That didn’t 9 9 The Terran boy (the Terran planet) My son was born on 2003.11.23. For me, this was a perfect child. I don’t remember him ever crying much or complaining, even when injured. Maybe he did not have much to complain about but he deserved all the attention considering the purity radiating from his soul, so easy to love. Even before my later transformation, I have often associated him with Earth, myself with Mars and his mother with Venus. During the marriage, we even had a pet dog called Luna. All this made even more sense through my later research. As we got separated, the boy - now 10 years old, was alternating homes, spending one day with his mother, the other with me. This was going on for a couple of years, and even though I don’t think this daily rotation was especially hard on him, I think everybody felt this was some kind of an undesirable status quo that’s going to be resolved sooner or later, one way or the other. I call these times the Age of confusion. This was somewhat resolved when I got a job 200 km away (up to that point I was working from home), when I started seeing the boy only on weekends. But after my nervous breakdown (transformation of consciousness), the system and my ex-wife turned even more hostile towards me. As much as I missed my son, I realized I had to let go and give up seeing him regularly (not because I was a problem for him, but because others were making problems out of it and it was affecting him). He is a grown man now (aged almost 22 at the time I’m updating this) and we’re now used to being apart. I am sure he’s fine with that, as I am fine with that now, but something has been lost. 10 The jobs, works, and prophecies I have earned my first money at the time of high-school. It wasn’t much but it was earned remotely, over internet, something still uncommon at the time (money was coming by regular mail in the form of cheques which I regularly had difficulties cashing in as local banks weren’t accustomed to this). My first serious work started some time during faculty and after I got married. I have worked for a couple of years as a freelancer, and, while I was very successful, this was very stressful and not rewarding enough so I gave up eventually to work on my own projects. Even though I was married, I still worked most of the time I was at home, regularly exhausting myself. So this was not a typical marriage, especially because I was still working alone (my wife had no interest in computers anyway). At first my wife objected mostly because I worked a lot and yet I wasn’t earning money. But I believed in my work and my self. My most successful project was a search engine for files hosted on file sharing services, which at its peak was among 3000 most popular sites in the world and was worth millions. I had other successful projects, but it all became too stressful and, eventually, I have lost motivation for this kind of work. So about the age of 35, as I was beginning to transform, I decided to shut everything down. 16 Up to the age of 36, all the money I have earned was earned from home. A interpret that as a relative precursor to most people working remotely. First, during pandemics, but later, full time. I still had to earn money, so I applied for and got a job at the IT department of the national library, NSK (Nacionalna i Sveučilišna Knjižnica) in Zagreb. I found a small apartment in Zagreb and started working in February, 2017. Although the IT department was, unsurprisingly, in a basement (while I liked the British IT Crowd show, you’d expect the respect for IT would be higher in the 21st century), the place was not a bad place for work. People were very nice and, apparently, they had bad experience with programmers in the past. I took the job seriously, however, so they actually begged me not to leave. And while I did not want to disappoint them, somehow I knew, someday I will. While I was working in Zagreb, as soon as I could, perhaps 3 out of 4 weekends, I was travelling back to Sibinj just so I could see my son who was now living mostly at his mother’s or grandmother’s house. During these visits I was staying at my parents’ house. At this point, programming was an exhausted subject for me and I wasn’t passionate about it anymore, but a physicist in me was certainly waking up. I would spent a lot of time thinking about the universe and very soon I started working on Complete Relativity and related works. This was the Age of transformation. For as long as I knew myself I’ve had this skin allergy. Its symptoms were reddish itching circles on the skin. A couple of times I have asked doctors to help with my allergy. They couldn’t tell what I was allergic to and they could only prescribe some generic pills. It was very annoying so I tried to discover myself what it is but without success. I was just adding stuff I’m not allergic to to the list - it was not seasonal so I was not allergic to pollen, I ruled out food, fabric, fabric softeners, detergents, shampoos and pretty much everything physical. Even before I started working in Zagreb, I have noticed some psychological transformation was happening to me. This only intensified in Zagreb. I was constantly experiencing the events of synchronicity and guidance to problem solutions. I was often working on one problem, couldn’t solve it, be guided to concentrate on something else and then find the solution there. One day somehow I was under the impression that I need a particular plant for an experiment. I was in the middle of the town and I really had no idea where I could find it so by tomorrow I forgot about it. The next day, for some reason I decided to go driving - I did not know where I was going, randomly turning left and right, I finally arrived at a hill in front of the woods. I liked woods so I parked the car and started following the path into the woods. The atmosphere was great there and the walk was really enjoyable. I 17 didn’t walk far, when I saw the plant by the road - the one I was looking for two days ago. But I didn’t pick up the plant, I didn’t know what I’m supposed to do with it. Only now I see, the experiment started a couple of days ago and ended with me finding the plant. Then one day I noticed I don’t feel hunger any more, this lasted 10 days for sure, maybe even two weeks. I didn’t change anything physically, I was still going to work as usual, so it was baffling to me why I didn’t feel any need for food. I forced my self to eat a small piece of toast every day because I thought that I may be sick even though I didn’t feel sick. Later, I realized this fasting period is probably common about the time one is experiencing a major transformation of consciousness. Note that lack of appetite is also common just before death. The two events are highly correlated. The allergy however was raging and one day during that time I decided to start ignoring it no matter how hard it would itch. At one point I found myself naked and meditating. The next day, allergy was gone and didn’t return for the next 4 years. After one year of working in Zagreb I was thinking of quitting the job so I could fully concentrate on Complete Relativity and the Solar System analysis. I was sick of life in the city and the stress it was creating - hearing the yelling of neighbours upstairs and their dog running through their apartment, the sirens, the crowds and traffic. Everything seemed so unnecessary yet always so present. I took a month of vacation, left the apartment for good and moved back to Sibinj. I wasn’t planning to go back to work but I realized I wasn’t ready to quit and after a month I had to go back. I went straight to work. I didn’t have the apartment anymore and I did not want to search for another one. So after work, I just drove to the nearby mountain, found a nice place where I parked and stayed for the night. It was far from traffic and far from people, I felt great and I didn’t want to leave. I figured if I stay here I could afford to see my kid more often, I’m gonna be more healthy and free of slaving to the apartment. So, pretty quickly, it was easily decided that this will be my place of residence in Zagreb from now on. There was a spring nearby with a fresh cold water where I would refresh myself every morning before work, the neighbourhood in the wild was alive, friendly and pleasant and non-intrusive, the living room was open and enormous and I could urinate in it without having to aim and flush precious water. And even though it was not so comfortable sleeping in the car for the first 6 months, I had a clear view of the stars while lying down. This was heaven compared to apartments and I soon started wondering what the hell is wrong with the world - they’re destroying this so they could build apartments and get even more sick? 18 I often imagined the town being destroyed by earthquakes and I felt strong desire for that to happen - because it was causing stress for people, for all life on Earth and Earth itself. The place where I lived was quite elevated (I later realized it’s exactly 666 metres from the sea level) so the winter was harsh at times. But I always loved winter and its atmosphere. Though my body was freezing at times, the energy, the sounds and everything - it was magical. And, for the same reason I didn’t feel I was sacrificing my leg on that romantic night in Lorret de Mar, the cold weather here couldn’t hurt this love at all. Staying at that place where I was isolated from people, surely had to affect my soul, and could be one of the reasons why my allergy stayed away. However, I knew one day I’m gonna quit my job and this will end. Over time I have realized that the root of evil for me on this world is in the government so eventually I decided to quit supporting it. I didn’t renew the registration of my car, but I knew I will be pulled over eventually so I decided this will be the day when I quit my job. Finally, one Friday, 2019.03.22, while I was driving to Sibinj, the terrorists in blue tried to stop me. I wasn’t driving very fast, but it was a long straight road and, normally, I was driving a bit over the limit. A blue terrorist ambushed me waving frantically with his stick implying that I should pull over and stop so he can take my money. I was really annoyed by these people, I knew they’re just another form of tax collectors, so I ignored his request and just continued on my way. I wasn’t trying to escape, I think I even slowed down a little. Some time later, a police car with its bells and whistles rushed behind me. I ignored them again, I just wanted to go home to see my son. At times they would go into the lane beside me and wave frantically trying to make me stop. Finally, I arrived into a small city (Nova Gradiška) and had to stop on a zebra crossing. They took the opportunity and forced me to park and get out of the car. At first they acted angry but I started yelling at them immediately. This was strange, because I never yelled in public before. They were shocked, they obviously weren’t used to such a reaction from someone who is not a criminal - they’ve surely checked my info before they pulled me over. I told them the uprising will come and that they will have to chose whose side they’re going to be on - the people or the system. The guy who was writing a ticket was so scared he was shivering. He asked me to take down my license plates, but I refused and he began taking them down himself. Being shocked and all, this wasn’t so easy for him, so eventually I ripped the plate off and threw it away. It took some time for them to write the statement and all, but after they were done I just took it all along with my government issued ID and threw it into a trash-can beside them. I had no plans to use or renew my ID anyway. From now on, I am not a number, I am a free man, or so I thought. Most would interpret my behaviour at the time as schizophrenic, but I see it now as prophetic. 19 I drove home and never returned to the job in Zagreb again. On Sunday, 2020.03.22, exactly 1 year after I left, a strong devastating earthquake hit Zagreb. The epicentre was just a kilo-metre away from my residence 666. I’m still waiting for the big one though - one with the epicentre at that place. As I’m sure I’ve mentioned elsewhere already, I’m not a killer or destroyer. Like Earth, I am generally a creator. I understand that people might die during earthquakes, but I don’t wish for death explicitly, I wish for everyone to get what they deserve (karma). If people would build buildings that don’t harm the Earth they wouldn’t have to worry about earthquakes harming them or destroying their homes. 11 The return of allergy (the return of humanity) After 4 years, the allergy was back. One might say I was never even cured from it because allergies do tend to disappear from time to time. I disagree. Something deep had happened to keep me free from it for 4 years - there were times before when it would go away, but it was never for this long, it was never more than a year if it ever was a full year. Eventually I started noticing that alcohol has a positive effect - every time I got drunk symptoms disappeared (by the time of hangover) and only started appearing slowly the next day, increasing in intensity as I was getting sober. This was very interesting because I was told that alcohol has a negative effect on allergies. While I was working on CR, I have managed to define what a soul is, and how big and where the Earth’s soul was. By analogy, I have found that the location of the human soul [or at least the soul of the human brain] is within the conarium (pineal gland) at the centre of the brain. Again, it should be noted that the two are relatively sharing space - conarium is not a vital organ and removal of conarium is unlikely to result in (be synchronized with) soul de-localization. Its radius is oscillating so it must be absorbing and emitting radiation of certain scale. The radius of the soul is correlated with its energy level, which differs between species (during reincarnations between different species the soul is changing its vertical energy level), but for individuals of the same species it is roughly 20 the same, so these individuals are in resonance and their souls exchange information through channels of entanglement (during changes/fluctuations in that entanglement). Unlike other parts of the brain, the conarium is not separated from the blood and CSF (cerebro-spinal fluid) by the blood-brain barrier - it is suspended in a mixture of blood and CSF. So conarium can be affected by whatever it is in the blood (e.g., alcohol) and the entangled part of the soul (e.g., radius) may be affected accordingly. If the soul’s radius is increased it will slow down time for the individual, if it is decreased it will accelerate time - but not only that, with the change in oscillation frequency the individual will get out of resonance with other individuals of the species. This is how I found the source of my allergy - humanity. When I’m drunk, my soul is out of sync with polarized humans and cannot be influenced by them. Thus, my immune system doesn’t react - there is no damage usually caused by polarized humanity. I have been saying, very often, that humanity makes me sick. Now I know that was literally true all along. Of course, allergic reactions are reactions to specific antigens (allergens) so this must be synchronized with the exposure of the immune system to specific proteins. Since I was not able to identify the allergen it is most likely a part of a locally produced protein, and the production of this protein was mentally induced. 11.1 The cure I never was an alcoholic nor I could ever enjoy being constantly drunk so I had to find a proper cure. That might mean the humanity will have to go away or I’m gonna have to isolate myself from it - unless this is a temporary fluctuation of the soul from a stable energy level where the soul is immune to polarization. A level my soul was elevated to 4 years ago. However, as ionic content of blood affects the polarized component of the soul, the solution could be in the change of blood pH factor. The alcohol, affecting kidneys, for example, indirectly affects the concentration of phosphate ions which usually balance ions of other minerals (salts). By this and other mechanisms, the alcohol indirectly affects the pH factor of blood (usually making it more acidic). But pH within cells is even more affected (towards even more acidity), and larger pH difference across cell membranes is larger electrical polarization. This can now be correlated with soul polarization. Clearly I do become more polarized (and thus more social) when drinking. During hangover, however, the electrical polarization can get lower (pH can even 21 increase beyond normal). I have previously hypothesized that soul strongly couples to the blood type. If electric polarization of blood is mirrored (synchronized) with the electric polarization of the soul (likely anti-hydrogen ion equivalents of smaller scale) - then it will affect the resonance. It might not affect the frequency of oscillation significantly but, with the reduction in voltage, it should reduce the intensity (power) of absorbed radiation - making the organism effectively less sensitive to mental radiation of other individuals. This reduction in signal power subdues and, upon reaching certain threshold, even eliminates the reaction of the immune system and subsequent production of allergic symptoms. Note, however, that apart from power, appropriate change in frequencies could produce a similar effect. I have also previously hypothesized that real homo.sapiens has more acidic blood[7]. While that should be valid for homo.sapiens.polarized it might not be true for homo.sapiens.neutralum. In any case, this doesn’t imply that polarization is higher, it’s probably lower for both (lower difference between cellular and extracellular pH). In conclusion, the 4 year long absence of allergy in my case should be correlated with one, more, or most likely all of these in synchronization (synchronicity): •change in difference between cellular and extracellular pH (allergy returns when this difference is the same as it is in people on average), •decrease in density of mental radiation of homo.beta.polarized (for almost a year I was living on the mountain, in isolation, and while my job was in the city, it was in the basement), •change in the soul’s energy level, affecting its dipole in a way it became more sensitive to radiation of other, still polarized but, non-cancerous species. Proper visualization during meditation can change the voltage between blood and cells, so one should be able to block the allergy through meditation, although meditation likely can’t induce permanent changes unless one can meditate while doing other stuff, like some animals probably can. Radiation on one scale is generally preceded by radiation of smaller scale in synchronicity (phase shift exists due to scale difference). Thus, one’s brain might not be emitting and absorbing radiation at the soul’s scale but also at the standard electro-magnetic scale. Since conarium is embedded in blood/CSF, due to presence of hydrogen ions, all it takes to generate electro-magnetic pulses is for the liquid with ions to periodically rotate about the conarium. This is exactly what happens during rinse cycles where CSF and blood in the brain exchange periodically. So each life form, or at least those 22 with a brain, generate changing electric and magnetic fields in the central region, likely aligned with Earth’s magnetic field. Each such organism is at some level aware of this field. If it’s not used for navigation, then it certainly could be used for communication. If cancerous mental radiation can cause allergy could it cause other diseases? In my case, it was allergy, but different organisms have different reactions, I am convinced the decrease in quality of mental radiation can be synchronized even with cancer development. If, for example, one finds itself smoking less in wilderness one might want to ask its self "why am I smoking less here and could it be correlated with the quality of mental radiation?". I, for example, do not generally smoke cigarettes and drink alcohol at home, but I generally always smoked cigarettes and drank every time I was in a pub among other people. Thus, I recommend everyone who feels sick to try isolation in the wild for a while, it may make one more appreciate the wilderness and, consequently, one’s true self, instead of that image one is forced to project every day to satisfy the sick mentality. One day after I wrote this chapter, I have noticed my allergy receded, it was at least 75% gone. Fascinating. If this was not a result of sudden decrease in absorbed negative mental radiation (unlikely), then it should be a result of my organism fixing the problem - probably by regulating blood pH level which is also mirrored in soul depolarization. Remember that an organism is always a symbiosis of smaller organisms and also a symbiosis of a soul with a body composed of organisms. I also haven’t smoked for 10 days, apart from 2 cigarettes yesterday. But now I decided to quit smoking as it is highly likely that it harms animals in my body (perhaps if I didn’t smoke these 2 cigarettes, the allergy would be 100% gone). This is all synchronized. Note that this does not mean smoking is now forbidden for me - I find it wrong to force my self to quit smoking absolutely. There are no absolute poisons, and this too likely has some benefits in small doses, and at certain occasions - even if it shortens my life. Shortening of life is not always bad, I find it bad to force people to live long or short. In my case, to quit smoking is to quit doing it automatically - renouncing the need but with no sacrifice of the will. I’ll smoke if I really want to, not because I need to. Of course, that’s easy to say but hard to do if the mental strength 23 deflates. In general, needs correlate highly with mental weakness (decreased self-awareness) and diseases. Smoking 1 cigarette out of need is much worse than smoking 10 out of want. Thus, I "have to" wish for my mentality to remain strong before I wish for another cigarette. It seems apparent that, once one becomes aware of its self (soul), how its organism is organized and how it works but also how the disease works, it becomes possible to cure the organism from that disease simply by contemplating the process. Meditation shows that, regarding the metabolism, one can induce changes simply by wishing for them through appropriate visualization. My case implies that it is not necessary to fully dedicate yourself to meditation, it can be done on the fly by dedicating only a small amount of resources to these tasks. Note that some animals, such as dolphins, birds and whales, can put some parts of their brain to sleep while they are doing ordinary daily tasks. Time will tell whether the effects are temporary, like in case of conventional meditation. However, I am sure this can be permanent, albeit with an important requirement for this - the organisms living inside one must be effectively aware of importance of their host to them so they work in a sustainable way for mutual benefit rather than for their own selfish short-term interests which would eventually destroy both. And since the collective inside is a reflection of the collective one is externally part of[9], one cannot expect these organisms to keep it healthy if one works against its own host organism (Earth). It is also not enough for one to stop being selfish itself and stop directly harming the host, one needs to also stop supporting those who harm it. Note that this might not work if forced (at least not in the long-term). I came into this state naturally by learning, truly understanding and truly believing in such mechanics of universes. I certainly do wish it works for everyone. UPDATE 2021.06.09: A couple of hours from that moment I decided to quit smoking in order not to harm creatures inside my body, the symptoms of allergy were 100% gone. I am amazed and I feel like we’re finally at the verge of truly understanding each other. So here I am healing my self with thoughts alone and people out there call me crazy and consider insane for contemplating that my soul was once inside the bodies of Jesus and Newton, while at the same time they 24 don’t even know where their own soul is, let alone how it works. Some even doubt they have a soul. It’s a good thing then that I decided to listen people inside my head and my body instead of these lunatics. I will never regret that. Finally, it feels good to be introverted. I am aware though, that, due to general oscillation, it is possible this allergy will be back again, but if it does it will be for shorter and shorter periods of time and of lower intensity (some guys inside my body might still doubt my good intentions and it is possible I might still harm them in some way, but that should not be a problem now that we can communicate, if I do something wrong they can show me some symptoms and I should figure it out). The current absence of allergy then could be interpreted as a precursor of a complete cure, but I have no doubt that I will be cured in the end, if I am not already. In any case, if one wants to cure itself from a disease, one shouldn’t take pills and block the symptoms - one is then blocking communication and further alienating its self from its people and understanding of the organism, while at the same time becoming more dependent on external, more complicated and more expensive, care (maintenance). That only leads to more and more diseases, more complicated and expensive life for one. No pharmacy can understand one’s organism nor cure it better than one can itself. Of course, if one is polarized and addicted to external medicine and pharmacy, this won’t be easy, but the key is in mental transformation. We have all been trained to care for things, people and creatures of external reality. The irony is, this distancing from internal reality of our bodies and our selves is making us less able to truly feel love and care for both external and internal, it forces us to fake it in an automated way. Thus, the care and love become more and more superficial while intelligence becomes more and more artificial. Modern medicine might tell one that cells and proteins in the body are dumb machines, at least on individual level. That’s because modern polarized man is able to measure extroverted intelligence only. But one’s cells and proteins are extremely introverted organisms. Their introverted intelligence can be extremely high. It is not surprising then that they can be mentally influenced - for introverted organisms, reality is mental. 25 "His head of hair, as white as snow, was full with no baldness. Even as an old man he retained the bloom and colour of youth and all his teeth except one." 2025.04.30 Apparently, the age of 43 is a transformational age for me as well. It is not a strong transformation, just like it wasn’t for Newton, but some physiological changes are definitely occurring. I’ve got some rash on my skin, nothing serious, but the last time I had rashes was before the previous transformation. I also started getting pimples on my face, nothing serious, but I can’t remember the last time I had these. There are some changes in behaviour as well. Previously, I didn’t have a habit of smoking and drinking coffee at home. This seems to have changed, again, nothing serious, but I am now drinking a cup of coffee daily and smoking 2 cigars on average (I’m not addicted, however - if there is no coffee or no cigars about, I skip it). My hair, however, is not grey yet, but there are signs of a bit increased greying, particularly in my beard. W. Stukeley said he was short-sighted young but not at old age. This is confirmed by Z. Pearce, who, a few days before Newton’s death, visited him: "I found him writing over his Chronology of Ancient Kingdoms, without the help of spectacles, at the greatest distance of the room from the windows, and with a parcel of books on the table, casting a shade upon the paper. Seeing this, on my entering the room, I said to him, ’Sir, you seem to be writing in a place where you cannot so well see.’ His answer was, ’A little light serves me.’" Conduitt stated however that Newton was short-sighted in his age but had not been so as a boy. With all things considered I’d say that Newton too aged slowly. As for the short-sightedness, I believe it appeared at times but was not permanent - the cause for its appearance may be similar to the cause of his early grey hair. And it seems temporary short-sightedness is happening to me too. Based on my experience, I believe ageing reversals happen at times of soul transformation. After my own transformation in thirties even my face looked younger - some were even saying I have "ironed" my face. One could argue, however, that the reason I looked older before transformation is stress and depression. But the fact is - depression is not only absent now, I’m incapable of being depressed now (sadness is something else though) so I 32 attribute this to transformation rather than to the absence of stressors. Newton experienced soul transformation about the age of 35 and then again about the age of 50[16], albeit a weaker one. Thus, I might experience another reversal about the age of 50. Tesla too claimed impeccable eyesight and aged slowly (died aged 86). Not sure if he experienced temporary episodes of short-sightedness but it seems he too experienced at least two transformations. According to literature, he experienced his 1st nervous breakdown at the age of 24, however, he was suffering from a peculiar malady similar to amnesia at the age of 35-36 which culminated with a psychic event and his mother’s death[17], and he experienced another transformation at the age of 50[18]. Note that I have hypothesized elsewhere that people are most likely to transform about the time of death of one of the parents (or even grandparents), after witnessing transformation in my own parents. Note also that Newton’s 1st transformation occurred about the time his mother died (he was aged 36 at the time). Tesla experienced 2nd transformation aged 50 - at the time his mother died. I’ve experienced my 1st transformation about the time my grandfather died (from mother’s side). I don’t remember if I had experienced something disturbing about the age of 24 (I did end up in hospital due to exhaustion sometime about that age but I don’t remember exactly when) but if I did it was nothing compared to what I experienced about the age of 36-37. Alignment obviously exists between mental excursions of Newton and Tesla - both have experienced significant mental disturbance at about the ages of 36 and 50. As for the event in the year 24 of Tesla - it was probably a result of exhaustion, not a long lasting event nor as significant, it’s very much possible that Newton experienced something similar at that age. And so far, alignment exists with my own experience, all that is left is the event about the year 50 to further confirm the hypothesis. I have no doubt that this event will occur, I’m just wondering who is going to die at the time? Certainly, I’m not looking forward to it, but nature and logic points to my grandmother - from the mother’s side of the family (it seems I am, like Newton and Tesla, more aligned with the mother’s side of genetics). At the time I reach 50, my grandmother should be 92 years of age. She is 86 at the time of this writing (year 2025) and still in good health so she is probably the source of genetics highly correlated with my ageing/metabolism (she’s also an ectomorph). However, events of soul-body transformation are also times of elevated possibility for death, therefore, some possibility exists for my death as well. I have also 33 calculated elevated probability for asteroid bombardment about the year 2029 (I’ll reach 48 years of age in that year) so this could all be synchronized. Note that, for Jesus, his transformation about the age of 36-37 was also his death. Note also that there are other similarities between Newton, Tesla, and I. Blue-grey eyes[19], for example, (which are generally rare). Tesla (apparently Newton too) also had a similar metabolism to mine. Like me, he was relatively tall (over 1.75 m) and had an unvarying smaller weight[20] (less than 70 kg) - which is typical for ectomorphs. Like Newton and Tesla, I wasn’t intimate with a lot of women. Interestingly, however, one woman for whom one can, with greater certainty, say that Tesla was intimate with - Katharine[21], had the same name as my ex-wife. 15 Redefinition of success For a long time and still up to the time of this writing, definition of success in human society is generally correlated with money, material possessions, marriage, titles, grades, points and careers. And, if for some reason, that doesn’t make one happy, one is instructed to go see a doctor whose magical pills will make it all easier for one to suffer through. Living in these systems, naturally, I was also trained to follow the path of such success. But, following that path, although I did feel some satisfaction in earning my first money, with more and more of this success I was feeling less and less satisfied and more and more depressed. On top of that, during my marriage, I was becoming less and less synchronized with my wife. All that was making me miserable. The worst part was that this depression was affecting my intelligence. Even my passion for programming waned, which wouldn’t be a problem had it been replaced by passion for something else. But it didn’t at the time. Eventually, even my marriage broke up and I felt like dying, being occasionally brought to life by the presence of my child. The other thing that kept me going were walks in the woods, hills and mountains, often coupled with a search for mushrooms. I was slowly learning more and more about nature. But living close to my ex wife and all the things I was supposed to left behind me, it was hard to focus on now, instead of bringing the past from subconsciousness into the arena. Coupled with the fact that my work was gone and I needed money to support the child, that resulted in a move to Zagreb. A place not close to my ex wife but also not too far from my son. This indeed proved to be a good decision for my health (although I am 34 now convinced this move was synchronized with changes in my organism and consequently improvement in health). In any case, this move could not have been avoided. Ever since I was a child, I always felt that one day I am going to achieve something significant and I felt this was going to be the understanding of the universe. The problem is, the system trained me to concentrate on its definition of my success (which conveniently can be exploited by it) and, even though I always followed science and occasionally contemplated on the universe, I never had the time to fully focus on it and do work which would actually make me feel happy. I realized I have to change that. That is why I didn’t search for high salary, but a job easy for me to do and also one with no overtimes and high pressure. The job at NSK was perfect for that. And even though I had to be there 40 hours per week, since the job was not very challenging for me, there would often be some time for me to work on my theories besides doing the job for them. Finally, now I felt I was on the path to success. I still had a job so I still wasn’t successful, but I knew I will eventually quit jobs so I can fully focus on satisfying work. Two years after, I did that, eventually I started thinking my theories were mature enough for publishing so I have created a website where I started presenting my works. However, I was in a different state at the time and after I got out of it I realized the work is actually far from being mature. This wasn’t a problem as I wasn’t really advertising the work and apart from occasional glimpses by a friend or relative who generally don’t read it all and don’t understand most of it, there are no human visitors. It’s been now almost 6 years since I’ve started working on all that is on the website but I have no plans to actually publish any of it in any journal (I did try a couple of times earlier though), after all, I’m still doing updates. I might self-publish some of the work as books somewhere but I’m in no hurry to do that. This never was about the world and I’m not interested in fame although I wouldn’t mind getting something back from those who do find it useful. 2025.04.04 I did not give up on publishing completely. However, my major works are too big for journals and I have no funds to publish or promote books. Besides, the climate in mainstream science seems to be deteriorating and it’s very hard to publish something that helps advancing science rather than advancing someone’s career. In any case, I am convinced the local universe has already found a way for this work to reach my next incarnation, if one more of me is destined, once 35 again, to roam the surface of this perfect child we call our planet. 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